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Steps of Success~
Thursday, September 15, 2011

There hasn't been much going on lately, but I have been feeling awfully insecure about doing nothing.  I feel like if there is time to do nothing, than there is certainly time to do something.  Am I meant to sit here and dream outside my skin, while all the time remaining within?  How can I claim to have accomplished or succeeded if I have not tried to find to achieve either. These are only the aftermath of experience.  Yet dreaming sets our hearts for doing.  A lot of what I want to accomplish mostly would certainly take a lot of heart to achieve.  I believe I have the heart, but after that, I guess I've got to find the motivation to follow my ever intent heart & because the heart rules all things I of course will desire its satisfaction.  This fuel ignites my drive and my motivation gears in motion. Then following the motivaton comes complication and this will generally happen in everything we attempt to do, it will then help us make the ultimate decision as to whether we continue on despite the effort, or if we start rethinking our heart.  This is where I fall backward almost every time.   This is one of my greatest flaws.  I recognize my heart, I realize what it would take to achieve a goal, I start out moving along with great excitement & then the work part comes into play, and that's about when I quit the game.  I have always tried to chalk it up to something else that 'stood in my way', but now it's time for some reconciliation~ Sometimes it's actually my fault.  I want to succeed and discovering that the work, the pain, the mistakes...they all add up to something greater if we just endure.  I wonder why I feel as though I have accomplished very little yet have been blessed so very much, but it is because I have not excepted that even through adversity there is the possibility of accomplishment and personal success.  If we've got our eye on something wonderful, and something BiG stands in our way, I just think it means that the something wonderful is far bigger than we can imagine.  We can see a glimpse but still can't concieve it all because it waits to be discovered on the other side!  Time for me to get moving~ 

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Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Who is God? What’s He all about? Why is there always so many questions?  I say, There’s just one simple answer to every kind of question, if you ask, He’ll answer~ 





We have the Bible, how much does that say about God? And how many of us are even reaching for our Bibles? We have our ‘ideas’ about God, but it almost seems like many would rather run and hide behind what is ‘concrete’ about God, as if somehow in fear to believe God any bigger. The Bible shows us first-out a powerful Creator, whom from His love and image he brought forth the Earth. From His mighty hand He lay a blueprint of life and purpose. A beginning, and an end. He saw us before, in the moment of creation when He spent designing each of us, uniquely. When he planned a world of perfection, and an Earth that needn’t be worked by hand. A garden where the lion lay with the lamb. Something crept up from the ground on it’s belly and changed the world for all mankind. How short-lived was perfection? Furthest from our Heavenly Fathers sight, Satan crept in. In our infancy he found us faultless. He bit with a strike to the human mind and we suffer his poison still today.














The Bible:






A book of ‘accounts’, written by those whom had profound and uninterrupted Faith with God. These were people with real lives and families, that had a faith in the Lord that they each had to discover and tenderly care for. They each were once children, and like all of us, were born with purpose and choice. They felt a longing on their spirits to seek a path, less desirable than any others, to contribute their part. Many of the writers of the Bible in whole were killed because of their faith. Have we also found something worth living, suffering and dying for? How tremendous and desirable the example. All these amazing events involving people we could possibly relate to somehow in life and in reality. Only separated by time. We hold so true the words of these men whom spoke of the power of our God over 2,000 years ago, look at our world, His people, our era of understanding. Is the power of God not greater felt now than even then. Yet we turn our eyes from Him, and onto this world, this much uncertain, unreliable system. We live our precious special lives by another man’s standard, a victim to society. Why aren’t we discovering more? Why have we made all worth believing in, appear impossible. Why have we nearly canceled the truth about who we are, out of our lives? By our choices we make our day. The choices decide what ways were aiming in our lives. They also control the parts that, by our lack of choice, we lose every opportunity of.


We needed direction, so God set before us His Word. We are to take the mysteries of the word, and the lives of the men who wrote it, only to turn to our Father for the answers to our questions. We must venture out into faith and never limit ourselves, or our God, to the words spoken as a foundation of what we hold true. We must trust it’s message and all God is speaking to us, through it. We are to find our faith and then set ourselves free in it. It’s an adventure of self-discovery, an individual relationship.


The plan of the Bible was very well thought out by our Maker, it has lasted over 2 thousand years and despite its vast array of interpretations and translations, the message remains inheritably the same. We find that in this day in time, even without ‘Bible knowledge’ one can still tell the story. There is a greater following going on than there has ever been before, but coupled with this is the reality that not all of these God loving individuals are living to the potential their God has put within them. How many of us live Monday thru Saturday for us, and Sunday for God? How many of us love our God but aren’t giving Him full control, trusting in Him for everything? We are too often defeated by our imbalance. The parts of us we struggle with the most, take hold of even the better parts of who we are. It is a battle to live a life without motion. We must accept, if we are going to do this thing for God, God’s going to keep us moving. For some that means getting out and making a difference, for others it means making a difference right at home. Either way we choose, God sees who he built you to be. Are we all living up to our best? How’s your relationship with God?






My grandfather is a great man of faith. He spoke that though he had already read his Bible many times, there was always that sometimes when he’d find something ‘new’. It is a book that is no less than a ‘masterpiece’ of time. Each story in the Bible can, by choice, be picked apart and discouraged out of misunderstanding. But the unique thing about the Bible is that you will find the stories are just the right amount of ‘hard to understand’, because when we are left wondering, we have to seek out the answers ourselves. That is what the word is supposed to do, drive desire within us to better understand. It’s when we ask that He hears.


We’re not going to always be able to remember the books, where they are and where in their pages is said something we would read, hear and always remember. So what keeps us from reaching for the word? And a better question yet would be, what in this world could possibly cause us to doubt?






In life there is more meaning than we are able to understand. For in this world we have found evidence of our being, and tried to unlock the mysteries around us. We deter ourselves from true essence, to waste our time trying to explain what ‘has been’. We are losing out on all the new things there are to discover. When will we realize that a moment that was once here and now gone, no longer exist. It requires no more of our time, or our efforts. For what is gone cannot be changed. Some moments are better left memories, and others, never remembered at all.


We each find ourselves forgetting, as time goes on there becomes a disappearance of even our most precious memories. The details of special moments in time begin to fade. None of us can escape the results of time. Yet, why, within each of us is there that desire to remember forever, and never forget? See, in life we find that with each thing there is that something that separates it from the perfect it was made to be. Everything.


There is and always has been within each of us, a desire to just ‘have more time’. Our moments with one another are limited, and in this, we discover what between us is so very special. At times, when we separate from one another, our hearts and minds feel as though they have never left. We are connected, and we feel ‘inseparable’ from one another and these feelings sway us sweetly into love. The more control another person takes of our minds, the more our relationship is watered and begins to grow into a beautiful flower of love. Between my husband and I is the only account I have to offer, when it comes to the sweet romance of just one man and one woman. It would be best described as a vine, that grows from the powerful roots that sprung at first we met. With attention, and much affection we watered that seed ’sewn’ at “hello”. We burst into life not only in the world but before God, we tied ourselves to each other, our two, became one flesh. We developed love, and even found at many turns things feeling like they could never feel any better, and then tomorrow came. We fell sweetly into rebellious desire. The minutes away from one another we’re the only ones we counted, and time disappeared altogether when were together. We were built for forever, and now, we daily prepare for ‘forever’ together. Our vines are weak and delicate. They have taken twist and turns in time, all around the strong foundations we’ve found and discovered together from which to grow on. Life has sprung us much misfortune, but has also gave us much opportunity and with it hope. There have been moments when growth has slowed, when we felt the weight of the world, and the pressure of others on our lives took first priority. We always seemed to be saving our dearest love for later, when things quieted down. What we begun to realize is that WE started all of this together, we are the reason our lives are as they are, we have duties to one another. The moment home, should be the moment we spend our time most longing for. Time together with the ones we have been gifted is exactly what we needed, with God first and foremost, and trusting our every need be met. This has proved to be a most inexpensive lifestyle, with rewards too numerous to mention, proof that you can slide across the very bottom of the scale they put us all on, and live one very blessed fulfilled life. 10 years of being together, I can’t believe the amount of times we gave up on ourselves and one another. We would slow so much we would almost mutually agree, that there was just nowhere for us to go, no place to see ourselves together, but we found our way by pressing on, believing that what was watering and pruning us all along the way, wouldn’t have planted us in vain. That even when it got dark, the light was just over the horizon. Always waiting to shine on another day. Just like a vine we grab hold of what appears before us, and for many years we didn’t realize we could choose our own direction. All along we were growing side-ways, in the cracks of life and the world, out of the cracks and back upward and then down once again. Finally, alas, I see. We are meant, and meant to go together, on the sunlight and cool water He brings.






I believe He is watching us all like a tapestry before His eyes. He studies and observes our growth, and from it discovers a beautiful pattern of love, woven through and for Him. We are each like a thread. Created with the ability to weave our own special pattern in the world and time. Equipped with our own beauty and purpose, our own special design. Whether we ‘weave’ for Him is up to us.

“We feel the weight of the world we were never meant to bare. Never created to endure. We struggle because God did not create our beings capable of failure, He built us out of perfection, before the world knew evil at all. We may hurt at the hand of the enemy, but we must not forget how powerful we are. When our circumstances Fail, we must fight to prevail. He did not create us in vain.”- Kayla Garrett


Clarence the hamster
Monday, January 18, 2010

This is my new virtual pet hamster Clarence. He will love it if you play with him!


Like the bees?
Sunday, January 17, 2010

It seems to me that this world is just a little too superficial.  I almost wonder if it would be some type of crime to say I don't like the way things are in the world.  If you really thoroughly understand the word superficial than you probably would agree....or you should.  Having really only knowledge of maybe 2 definitions of the word superficial, I took to the online dictionary.  I was amazed to find seven defintions that all fit so nicely as to my view on the world. The Superficial World:  Being at, on, or near the surface,  of or pertaining to the surface, external or outword, apparent rather than real....you get the idea. The world itself is mearly an inhabitant of it's deeper planet earth.  Yet through all it's developed knowledge, the world has yet to explain how we (as a world) can dare lay claim to Earth for she is so much greater than any amount of men could explain, let alone comprehend.  We think we as the human race are so powerful.  So many of us equate that by our successes we earn our power.  Or an individuals rank determines their level of respect.  The list goes on.  But what some so easily fail to realize is that in that way and more we are like bees.  Highly intelligent, purpose driven, militious yet focused bees.    We work so diligently at our jobs, never breaking, never ceasing, our eyes are always on the prize and it makes it so easy to see the best in life as just the honey.  What we forget to realize is that our world is like our hive, that mearly hangs on the limb of a something much bigger, like a tree, and that though we have been given the ability to explore our knowledge as do the bees pocess the ability to fly.  We take to the skies (so to speak) and work so hard to understand all that is around us.  It's just so much bigger than we can ever understand.  So much greater than we are ever meant to explain.  And at the end of a long hard day of work, it still always goes back to being all about the honey.  We need to take our minds off of the little things, that when captured and picked apart can never explain that 'something' thats a little bigger.  We're all about us... only venturing out to touch  the surface and then return to this comfort zone we have been building up around us for so very many years.  Look at life deeper than the cool things people have come up with and sucked us into.  Lets start looking past the illusion that we have it all (or most of it) figured out.  Let's all realize that though we may only be like the bees to this beautiful earth,  we are still very very special, and very very important.  As the bees are important to the earth, we are to the world.  We're not to get that confused.  We have nothing to offer the plants and the trees as they provide us with so much.  We have nothing to offer the nature we marvel but her sure destruction.  But as the bees have their part in Earths cycle, we have ours in the world.  Let's start with each one of us.  Let's start changing this world because we were born to.  How you do it...should come naturally.  Just as the bees follow whats right, and it's role is so vital.  Ours is even greater in the eyes of the Lord, creator of all things explained and unexplained, all things discovered or yet to be.  We have a purpose, so lets all get to it.  We will only see our world flourish.  Let's find it in us to be all that we were placed on this earth to bee. lol  :)  Until next time...      "Love your neighbor as yourself."   That is an awesome start.....  



Thursday, January 14, 2010


How I love you
there is no explanation
surpassing even my own
understanding.
In your eyes I know
nothing and feel everything.
You make me forget
all that doesn't matter,
& you make me feel the
only thing that does.
~Love~


Getting down...and staying up.

You ever feel really right about something, but for some reason something always feels wrong? I hate that. I can't help but think that I'm going the wrong way with this blog. But then the thought keeps coming back that I could just start a new one and maybe that one will be a bigger hit. Sometimes I just feel alone in my opinion. Like maybe there aren't people as passionate about our roots and purposes as I am. Maybe when people read this blog they think I am just sappy, or even crazy...who knows? All I know is this makes me happy. And if it makes me happy I am going to do it. Why is it always so easy to get down about what feels right? I am excited about this, and I am going to refuse to let any negative thoughts get in the way. In due time someone will read this. Hey maybe someone may in fact start following it...lol. That would be so exciting! Someone cares Someone cares! lol. Or maybe someday! I am going to go and try to find a way to make this blog look like my style. Enjoy the reading below...and if you think it's sappy or even crazy please comment....I'd like to modify this to a readers liking. Your input would be greatly appreciated.



Monday, January 11, 2010

I noticed just now this feeling as I navigated to this page.... I was wearing a smile (and still am :) of such genuine splendor, it's even hard for me to describe. I right now am feeling such happiness it's none less than meant to be. Maybe this means I am about to say something amazing or that in doing this I am actually discovering a something I was always meant to do. Either way is just alright with me.

Hi everybody~ wow... that seems so strange. I still have yet to get used to imagining that what I am writing from my heart...someone actually may be reading. The thought of it to some may in fact seems scary. To me there are no strings in this place. Though I have yet to grasp the idea, the motive remains the same. I feel like I am meant to be here. Like whether there are one or many of you, or even if this always goes unread, I will have still done it.
I have so much to say. So much I want someone to hear, read, believe. But if I don't actually reach anyone, at least I reached. If you read this once and never return to read it again take from it that we are each so special so unique. We are even so amazing that we are built for forever. That though our bodies are aching with age, the truest part of each of us is never dying. Yet we still fear death and blame it on our misunderstanding. I have an understanding of it, and you should too. Death of this flesh is simply that. It's only death. Just as you were born you shall die. We must not forget that even before we were born we lived, and even after our death we shall live. Life here is a mere fragment of forever. Yet so many of us are caught up on the here and the now. Whether you believe or whether you do not the rules never change. There aren't exceptions and each day we live, in denial of that, we are lost. Each day is one day here and then gone again. Our existence doesn't die with our death. Our death is simply another bump along our journey. Lets learn to live our life to it's fullest, leaving the concerns of the flesh behind and becoming the free spirits we are equipped to be. Let's change the world starting with ourselves. Let's fight on the side that never loses. It really is as simple as that. But remember, either way we choose our battle, we still must fight. Love always,