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Clarence the hamster
Monday, January 18, 2010
This is my new virtual pet hamster Clarence. He will love it if you play with him!
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Like the bees?
Sunday, January 17, 2010
It seems to me that this world is just a little too superficial. I almost wonder if it would be some type of crime to say I don't like the way things are in the world. If you really thoroughly understand the word superficial than you probably would agree....or you should. Having really only knowledge of maybe 2 definitions of the word superficial, I took to the online dictionary. I was amazed to find seven defintions that all fit so nicely as to my view on the world. The Superficial World: Being at, on, or near the surface, of or pertaining to the surface, external or outword, apparent rather than real....you get the idea. The world itself is mearly an inhabitant of it's deeper planet earth. Yet through all it's developed knowledge, the world has yet to explain how we (as a world) can dare lay claim to Earth for she is so much greater than any amount of men could explain, let alone comprehend. We think we as the human race are so powerful. So many of us equate that by our successes we earn our power. Or an individuals rank determines their level of respect. The list goes on. But what some so easily fail to realize is that in that way and more we are like bees. Highly intelligent, purpose driven, militious yet focused bees. We work so diligently at our jobs, never breaking, never ceasing, our eyes are always on the prize and it makes it so easy to see the best in life as just the honey. What we forget to realize is that our world is like our hive, that mearly hangs on the limb of a something much bigger, like a tree, and that though we have been given the ability to explore our knowledge as do the bees pocess the ability to fly. We take to the skies (so to speak) and work so hard to understand all that is around us. It's just so much bigger than we can ever understand. So much greater than we are ever meant to explain. And at the end of a long hard day of work, it still always goes back to being all about the honey. We need to take our minds off of the little things, that when captured and picked apart can never explain that 'something' thats a little bigger. We're all about us... only venturing out to touch the surface and then return to this comfort zone we have been building up around us for so very many years. Look at life deeper than the cool things people have come up with and sucked us into. Lets start looking past the illusion that we have it all (or most of it) figured out. Let's all realize that though we may only be like the bees to this beautiful earth, we are still very very special, and very very important. As the bees are important to the earth, we are to the world. We're not to get that confused. We have nothing to offer the plants and the trees as they provide us with so much. We have nothing to offer the nature we marvel but her sure destruction. But as the bees have their part in Earths cycle, we have ours in the world. Let's start with each one of us. Let's start changing this world because we were born to. How you do it...should come naturally. Just as the bees follow whats right, and it's role is so vital. Ours is even greater in the eyes of the Lord, creator of all things explained and unexplained, all things discovered or yet to be. We have a purpose, so lets all get to it. We will only see our world flourish. Let's find it in us to be all that we were placed on this earth to bee. lol :) Until next time... "Love your neighbor as yourself." That is an awesome start.....
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Thursday, January 14, 2010
How I love you
there is no explanation
surpassing even my own
understanding.
In your eyes I know
nothing and feel everything.
You make me forget
all that doesn't matter,
& you make me feel the
only thing that does.
~Love~
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Getting down...and staying up.
You ever feel really right about something, but for some reason something always feels wrong? I hate that. I can't help but think that I'm going the wrong way with this blog. But then the thought keeps coming back that I could just start a new one and maybe that one will be a bigger hit. Sometimes I just feel alone in my opinion. Like maybe there aren't people as passionate about our roots and purposes as I am. Maybe when people read this blog they think I am just sappy, or even crazy...who knows? All I know is this makes me happy. And if it makes me happy I am going to do it. Why is it always so easy to get down about what feels right? I am excited about this, and I am going to refuse to let any negative thoughts get in the way. In due time someone will read this. Hey maybe someone may in fact start following it...lol. That would be so exciting! Someone cares Someone cares! lol. Or maybe someday! I am going to go and try to find a way to make this blog look like my style. Enjoy the reading below...and if you think it's sappy or even crazy please comment....I'd like to modify this to a readers liking. Your input would be greatly appreciated.
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Monday, January 11, 2010
I noticed just now this feeling as I navigated to this page.... I was wearing a smile (and still am :) of such genuine splendor, it's even hard for me to describe. I right now am feeling such happiness it's none less than meant to be. Maybe this means I am about to say something amazing or that in doing this I am actually discovering a something I was always meant to do. Either way is just alright with me.
Hi everybody~ wow... that seems so strange. I still have yet to get used to imagining that what I am writing from my heart...someone actually may be reading. The thought of it to some may in fact seems scary. To me there are no strings in this place. Though I have yet to grasp the idea, the motive remains the same. I feel like I am meant to be here. Like whether there are one or many of you, or even if this always goes unread, I will have still done it.
I have so much to say. So much I want someone to hear, read, believe. But if I don't actually reach anyone, at least I reached. If you read this once and never return to read it again take from it that we are each so special so unique. We are even so amazing that we are built for forever. That though our bodies are aching with age, the truest part of each of us is never dying. Yet we still fear death and blame it on our misunderstanding. I have an understanding of it, and you should too. Death of this flesh is simply that. It's only death. Just as you were born you shall die. We must not forget that even before we were born we lived, and even after our death we shall live. Life here is a mere fragment of forever. Yet so many of us are caught up on the here and the now. Whether you believe or whether you do not the rules never change. There aren't exceptions and each day we live, in denial of that, we are lost. Each day is one day here and then gone again. Our existence doesn't die with our death. Our death is simply another bump along our journey. Lets learn to live our life to it's fullest, leaving the concerns of the flesh behind and becoming the free spirits we are equipped to be. Let's change the world starting with ourselves. Let's fight on the side that never loses. It really is as simple as that. But remember, either way we choose our battle, we still must fight. Love always,
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Finding my way to you.
It has occured to me that my purpose for this blog is to find my way to you. I want this blog to be my outlet and your source. When you enter into this blog I want you to imagine that I am talking right to you. I want each of you to understand that though we are worlds apart...we are really a lot the same. Sometimes we struggle. And often times we don't want others to know about our pain. You may feel like you need help sorting out your emotions, and that is what I am here for. Have you ever read a book, or listened to a song...and sometimes the message feels like something that you yourself have encountered and what happens? There is a tugging at your spirit. I have even been brought to tears by a song. I believe that is our spirit finding a place of comfort...a feeling that assures us, we've never really been alone in our pain. I think that is powerful. I want to create that feeling within each of you when you read these blogs. I am so excited that you may be able to not only read them, but to feel them as well. We are fragile in flesh. Hurting someone is one of the easiest things for us to do, and helping them through that is often the hardest. This is where things get mixed up. My opinion is that it should be roles reversed. If all of us come to terms with the very evident fact that we are not only flesh alone, but we are each a powerful spirit within. Then we will be able to start making life changing decisions that are differant in many ways than the decisions we have made all the years of our life. This decision is one that once you make it...you take it. And no one can ever take it away. What we have within us is ours to carry, develop and then send home. Too often we let others affect us in negative ways deeper than they themselves could ever even repair. We allow things to damage our spirit, or hinder it's growth. It's not the fault of the people who have hurt you, or the situations you've been forced to endure and then clean up. It's our fault for allowing the things others do or say to be on our minds and in our hearts...the most precious parts of each of us. We take these rotten things and allow them to build up where the true rewards in life are still lying dormit. If you think back on every memory you have ever made...there too will be emotion. And often the further we go from our memories the more powerful and emotional they become. Because each and every moment that really feels like it's worth living created some type of emotion inside of us. So those special moments are here to help us identify who we really are. So say someone hurt me and I (really without even thinking) allowed it to devistate me, inside and out. Well, it's like I have taken up that package of sadness, anger and hurt and I have stored it deep within me. And this package is regretfully not alone. After time, the package is still weighing heavily, my flesh feels its presence and my mind checks its status regularly. The latest packages we store are the ones we think of most, but the ones we have stored deeper have made the place they have been for so long, home. So what am I getting at...lets see.... Packages take up space. It's as easy as that. And if they contain negative content, and leak emotions of sadness and pain. What state have we left our spirit? And how much room are we leaving for our spirit to shine through naturally? When I said before that the roles should be reversed I meant that though its so simple to let something thats happened to us affect us so deeply the consequences are so very difficult to undo. So each of you should take a chance. Make a decision. Decide that you are powerful...well...because you are. Decide that there is still room for good to prevail despite that collection of packages you may be carrying. Decide that when someone hurts you...they hurt themselves as well. And decide you're not going to carry that for them. Start doing rather than wishing there were more you could do. If someones wronged you...stop it in it's tracks...take that situation and turn it around. Just don't let it affect you longer than the moment you are standing in. When you leave a situation, or a place or a conversation. Leave it there. It's not worthy of your time, it's not worthy of your tears. You are special, amazing, powerful and spirit driven. If you love, you are spirit, and after all isn't love the only thing that makes us all the same? So take that and embrace that. If you have really read what I have typed, and I hope it all makes sense, than you'll understand what you have always known. Make the decision that life isn't going to hurt who you are anymore. Let your flesh feel the pain and leave the pain in the rain. So you'll always have the most important part of you to yourself. Come back for some more insight. Love always,
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Just starting out....
Saturday, January 9, 2010
It's almost funny. You see, this is actually my first time typing anything anywhere near a blog...so as you can imagine I am sitting here staring at this old school text page wondering what I should type here, and if anything will ever seem good enough...and it has occured to me that this is the one place I can just say how I feel and maybe someone else will feel the same way. And I'm not here to see how high my friend count can go. Maybe you'll take a moment or two to just read through a little of who I am, and maybe realize that somehow...I might be able to help. I usually have lots of great things to say. I've always felt like I havn't had trouble making friends. You may find that I am someone you have stumbled apon for a reason. So just check back in here and there I am excited to be adding new things frequently. Oh and a little about me... I am a happily married 27yr old mother of four hilarious kids who keep even me laughing. Visit me again soon~ and if not... be true to you, laugh, seek peace, and well....just get back in here and check the scene out already....lol.
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